I’m going back to work next week. I’m think I’m supposed to feel sad that my maternity leave is over and worried that Flixster is starting nursery. The truth is that I will be worried about Flixster but I’m quite looking forward to returning to work. I’m lucky that I like my job I work with a great team of people. I’m also lucky that I’m not returning five days I’m going back to the 3 long days I did after the boy was born. Flixster will be attending the same nursery that the boy goes to 3 days a week. I really like the nursery, it’s in an old cottage and feels homely. The staff are nice and the children seem happy there. So I know that he’ll be looked after, its just hard at first to picture him away from me. I will try my best not to think to much about him, not because I don’t care but because I don’t want to upset myself. there is no other way at the moment, I have to go to work so he has to go to nursery. We don’t have family close by who would be able to have them and even if we did it’s a big commitment to have children for three days each and every week, when you’ve already worked all your life and are now retired.
I’m looking forward to being back at work so that people call me Jane and not just “Flixsters mummy”. I enjoy the challenge of work, something different everyday. Its rewarding as well to know I’m helping people. I know it sounds daft too but it’s me time, time when I can think about something other than housework, feeding and nappies. Time to use my brain and give it a workout.
I’ve been for Flixsters first trial at nursery today, we went to the baby room for an hour and I stayed with him. He seemed ok but he was sat with me for the whole time so he had no reason to be concerned anything was out of the ordinary. Tomorrow I’m due to leave him at lunchtime for around 90 minutes. I’m sure he’ll be fine, but only time will tell. I hope he settles in quickly and that he understands as best he can that we’ll always be back to pick him up each evening. I’m expecting him to catch all sorts of illnesses though in the next few months, it can’t be helped when they start nursery. I’m just hoping that his immune system is nice a strong to cope with them all.
He’s still breastfed so I’ll be sending milk in with him for the nursery to give him. I’ve not started pumping yet so I’d better do that soon as he starts properly next Wednesday. I’m going to have to pump at work too as he feeds lots during the day and I don’t want to stop feeding him yet.
I’m not sure how I’ll cope with the tiredness when I’m back in work, he still feeds lots of times through the night, I guess I’ve got no option but to cope. I just hope he starts sleeping a little more in the evening soon or I’ll be spending all day at work and then the evening trying to settle him, which will mean I never get anything done.
I hope the next few months aren’t too turbulent for us as a family but I’m not so sure they are going to be easy sailing for us either. I guess only time will tell!
I think it’s great that you’re looking forward to returning to work, and so lovely you can do three days!!
I’m sure that your little guy will be great at nursery especially since he will have his big brother to support him if he gets sad!!
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Thank you, we’ve had another trial today and although they said he did get upset at lunch he did have some happy time too so not all bad! Settling in can be hard though but I guess we’ll get there. We don’t have a choice!
Ahh you are such a super mommy. I know you will be amazing. You somehow will find a little routine with your pumping at work and Flixster will enjoy playing with others and the attention he will receive because he is so darn adorable. I bet it’s so hard to leave them but you are great at your amazing job and it’s great having both worlds a career and being a mom. Thank you so much for linking up to Share With Me. #sharewithme
Thank Jenny, I think though that you have the harder job, having been at home with your gorgeous two and keeping a perfect house whilst starting your new career. I admire and look up to you! #supermom
I think lots of us go through these feelings – wanting to rediscover our working lives but worrying about our babies and their transition. They are such adaptable little things though, you’ll find a routine and the dust will settle! Good luck! X #sharewithme
Thank you, reassurance always helps make me feel better.
Awww goodluck with this. I hope that everyone can adjust fast and well =) #sharewithme
Thank you
Ah hope it all goes well for you. Get pumping! x x x
Thank you! Yes i really must start collecting some milk for him ekkkk!
Hey!! I just came across your blog, what a lovely little corner you have. I enjoyed reading your post. Ans Ii know what you mean, no matter where we leave our little ones, whether with grandparents or nursery, we will forever be thinking about them, I hope that Flixster settles in quickly and enjoys it there. And I hope that you too settle at work without worrying too much about Flixster. wishing you all the best x
Thank you for your kind comments, glad you enjoyed reading my posts. It’s nice to get great feedback so thanks again. Hopefully things will be ok this week, we have no other option!